Neurosis

So lately I keep getting deja vu type feelings. Perhaps I'm repressing emotions from my childhood or something or I've BEEN repressing childhood emotions and now they're coming out, but I keep remembering high school and grade school. I mean, like I'll look out the window, see the sky a certain color and suddenly I'm waxing poetic about Kay and I playing Barbie on days like this, or reading a certain book, or just being a certain age. Or I'll feel myself wanting to sleep in on a stormy day and I'll be sad because I used to do that as a teenager and looking out my window at the rain..blah, blah, blah. I"m not explaining the surge of emotions correctly here, but hopefully I've gotten enough across to portray how weird this feels. Does everyone feel this way? I mean, I don't really feel a whole lot of "I miss that" emotions about college, or even my family and I live far away from them now? Why only grade school and high school? Why does it feel like I could wake up at any moment and be getting ready to go to band with Mr. A? Or something of that sort? Like time went too fast all of a sudden and I'm not really supposed to be grown up yet. Anyway, it's been happening more than usual, and it's making me feel very sad and a little weirded out. What the hell is wrong with me? Anyway, I wanted to post something new, and get away from the Wives topic until I've finished the book...so there you have it. I'm neurotic or something.