I can never seem to come up with a catchy, creative title to my blog. I think after years of history research I have lost my ability to be creative quickly. Today I was thinking about embarassment..the things that make us embarassed actually. For example, I was at Panera, buying breakfast for me and Nick and I handed the girl my credit card. I KNEW I had plenty on it, because I had just paid the bill yesterday. But, alas! the payment had not posted because I hadn't paid at the perfect time on a weekend. So, my card was rejected. Luckily I had cash, but that left me with only $1 left. My point though is this...I was really embarassed. It wasn't my fault that the payment hadn't been posted, because I was going by central standard time and my credit card company was on eastern standard time, and I hadn't done anything on purpose to make the cashier have to run it again and then change the order and all - and yet, I was really embarassed, thinking "gosh, what are they thinking, probably that I should pay my damn bills on time, etc." So I got all defensive, in my head.
Being embarassed is such a weird thing isn't it? It's so based on how others view us - and I really didn't care what that cashier thought - I don't even know her - and yet, I DID care for just that tiny amount of time and I was embarassed.
In other news, it's possible I spelled embarassed incorrectly. If someone actually knows if it's right or not, let me know.
4 comments:
Yeah. I'm with you on this. Also, I believe you spelled it correctly.
On another note, whenever anyone writes and/or says "and yet..." I instantly return to Play On from the fall of our senior year.
I have no idea what comes after that line, but I definitely remember playing the guy who plays the villian and yelling "And yet...!" pause pause pause. "And yet?"
It still tickles me.
ah.. sweet joyous play on. now THAT was a stupid play.
I sometimes really miss high school and all the fun stuff we did.
I need to get out my box of high school stuff and post the awesome song Felix wrote about mine and katie's characters, about how it was ok to be gay. :-)
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